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This anxiety overruns me
I feel it flooding through my bones
I can't compare this choking lack of air
I breath out my mouth, then in my nose

I want to count out numbers
I'm calmer when memorising pi
Archimedes, you've been a saviour to me
I wish I was there when you were alive

I struggle with my polarity
Zero to ten and back again
Hippocrates labeled my melancholy
This mania suppresses my number five

So I shut myself down to your pitiful moans
My sympathy had to depart
For this empathy would be the death of me
As I feel too much all of the time

So as this anxiety bleeds into me
The pressures cooks into my heart
I hate the mess I must learn to live with
But I don't want to be dumb to feel fine

Granted I've been demoted now
What once was south to north
Is now Cancer to Capricorn
But my equator is still amiss

So I've been resting between two and eight
I toss and turn with every dream
But those night terrors eat away at me
I desire to lessen this great divide

It'd be easier not to be this way
Not tracking my choices, just letting life be
But I take note of my mood each day and night
I'm learning to reason when I desire to fight

Some forget me or just choose not to care
I'm both the loudest and the quietest in every room
Never the prettiest, nor ever the least
And I've tried and tried not to let it get me down

So I dwell in this anxiety that I crave to overcome
Before my impatience takes the best of me
I take pills with juice each and everyday
Yet, forever that taste remains on my tongue